Day 5

No anxiety today because its the weekend!!!! Still keeping up with all my meds. Today I went to a HUGE garden sale and bought a plethora of plants with my father. I also bought two koi fish name Ponyo and Sosuke(pronounced so-skay) so far they are not dead which is a good thing! Then just recently I came back from a party which was a lot of fun! I actually felt like a normal teenage girl without anxiety!! So thats how today went so it was a pretty fun day for me! Now I'm going to bed since I am EXSHAUSTED!!! Good Night!!!

- Marty <3

Day 4

Guess what???!! I Made it through a FULL day of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!! I havent done that in forever and it was an actual normal day of school I went to every class and I didnt go to guidance at all!!!! I hope this day wasnt just pure luck!!!! Now yesterday I said I hated the new medication but today I LOVED it!!! It worked like a charm! I am living proof that any one with anxiety problems can do ANYTHING they put their mind to! If you have doubts like I did dont worry!!! One day it will all work out like it did for me today! I even rode the bus which I use to have a huge fear of!!!!! I am sooooo proud of myself!!!!!!!! So you guys can DO IT TO!!! LOVE YOU ALL!

- MARTY <3!!!!

Day 3

Hey!!! Well today was pretty much like yesterday I didnt make it to school but instead I stayed home and work on all the make up work I have. I'm still working on it currently and it is a pain but I guess thats whatcha get when you miss school repeatedly. My new medication I don't really like a lot it makes me feel sad and like I have no feeling its really strange I just cant wait to get off of it! My other medication, Lexapro, is fine it doesnt really have a lot of symptoms that bother me so I can live with it. Well I hope all of you guys have had a nice day and continue to have a nice one as the day is not over yet!

- Marty <3

Day 2

Well this day was nothing to exciting. I just stayed home and did some work. I also cleaned up my house a bit. My anxiety not suprisingly was not active today. I'm still getting use to my new medicine which makes me really drowsy and if I don't eat anything before my I take my medication I get really dizzy!! I hope you all had a great St. Patricks day! Tomorrow for me is school and I hopefully will try to make it through the whole day so wish me luck!!!!

- Marty <3

Word of Caution

Hey everyone I just wanted to let you know another major source of anxiety problems is thyroid problems.Hyperthryodism which is an overactive thyroid here are the symptoms of hyperthyroidism nervousness, irritability, increased perspiration, thinning of your skin, fine brittle hair, muscular weakness especially involving the upper arms and thighs, shaky hands, panic disorder, insomnia, racing heart, more frequent bowel movements, weight loss despite a good appetite, and, lighter flow, less frequent menstrual periods. So watch out for these symptoms because what you think might be just some anxiety and panic problems could actually be a thyroid problem.

- Marty <3

Wow I am just soo excited that I have 14 visitors already and more to come!! Thank you all for checking out my blog!!!! It makes me feel amazing that I am hopefully helping out people!!! Love you all!!!

- Marty <3

GAD Gal

Hey everyone I just wanted to let you know that I will be changing my name from My Teenage Anxiety to GAD Gal either later today or sometime tomorrow. So if you don't want me to change it then just post a comment with your opinion.

- Marty <3

Hey Everyone I changed the background for St. Patricks day which is tomorrow!!!!! So everyone have a great St.Patricks day and don't forget to wear green!

Day 1

Hey! Its Marty here! Today was a pretty unusual day. Since my brother had to go to the doctor this morning at 8:30 my parents let me stay home for the morning until it was time to bring me and my brother to school for the day. I was all excited about this idea because i get to sleep in rather then wake up at 5:30 and since we have this new, stupid time change crap I have not been getting a lot of sleep lately. Well when I got to school I was all shakey and nervous because school to me has been hell! Seeing my dad sign my name in and saying he couldnt pick me up in the middle of the day nor could my mom got me even more nervous! My parents are probably my biggest comfort when I have anxiety. After that I basically chased my dad down and begged him to take me back home! Ofcourse he refused and said I have to just deal with this and I know I do but its so hard to deal with!!!! My dad said all I have to do is just be brave but I am a 90 pound wimp when it comes to this kind of stuff! So as soon as I turned around to go to school I headed straight to guidance, well atleast I tried to but my brother blocked my my way and told me just to go to class and let me tell you I was in no shape to go to class!So I just turned around and headed to the clinic! Once a got there I frantically dialed my dads number knowing that he has just left the school parking lot so he could just pick me up, right? Wrong he again refused and said this was my anxiety talking and he was completely right! Now a days my anxiety does the talking at school not me! So after him hanging up on me I tryed repeatedly calling for which he did not pick up his phone so I decided to call my mom. Thankfully she picked up but had to quickly hang up because she was getting another call from my dad. I left the clinic to get my books and other items from my locker and I got to see all my friends who I havent seen in days!! After saying good bye to them I thought I should stop by guidance to pick up my curriculum guide. Well I got my curriculum guide but I also got some chit chat in with my guidance counselor. She was talking about options for classes and stuff but all I was thinking was getting the heck out of there and going home. Well after 10 minutes in there talking to her my dad walks in! I was so happy yet so upset because I know he would probably be mad with me. My parents now are always upset at me! It makes me feel like a piece of crap and they think they know what Im going through but they dont!!! Im really grateful though that they are helping me and trying to find a way to get me to my old self but I really wish they would cut me some slack. So lets get back to topic, my dad and counselor talked about getting a meeting together with all my teachers which is next thursday at 2:30! Im kind of nervous for that meeting though. Well after they discussed that they started talking about this homebound thing which is a thing were you stay home and a tutor from the county comes to your house and gives you work from your teachers. I don't think I'm ready to give up going to school completely yet but i'm close thats for sure! Finally my dad and me left for home and now I'm completely happy to be in my nice warm house :). So that was my unusual day never had one of those! By the way don't be afraid to comment I would love to hear what you have to say!

- Marty <3

A Little Summary

Hey! Its me Marty. I thought I should explain a little bit about myself. First of all I am a 9th grader and I love high school. So far its actually have been a blast. The work isn't to tough, have a lot of friends, and best of all there are a lot of cute boys ;). My anxiety has been an issue ever since the third grade but I really don't know what set it off. My anxiety has been manageable for a few years now and its slowly been getting better. My anxiety attacks would be horrible exspecially if i was with my friends because I didn't want them to see me acting weird and twitchy (when I'm twitchy I usually pluck at myself)so I would go to the bathroom or something to calm myself down. For the past two months my anxiety has been really I mean extremely bad! It used to be I was anxious for going to my 4th period class which is band but now it has escalated into I can't stand going to school anymore! I wake up feel horrible and scare try not to make a big deal out of it and the moment the bell rings for classes to start I feel horrible I usually make 40 minutes in my first period class but after that I run to the clinic to go home I'm usually balling and stuff and its scary!!!! My teachers all know and they excuse me whenever I need to leave to go to guidance to talk to my counselor who seems to be getting more annoyed with me everyday! Its so frustrating when I have no one to truly turn to during school besides my friends who I have too wait for lunch to see them and I'm usually home by then. My grades are plummeting and I use to be an A student and now I have a 39% in one of my classes!!!! Its all so stressful and confusing!!! I've been to the doctor and he put me on medicine that doesn't really start kicking in until 6 weeks so I went to the doctors again today since a left school early again and he put me on another medicine that should really start working fast. So here I am now writing all my thoughts and feelings out about me so this was just a summary about me!