A Little Summary

Hey! Its me Marty. I thought I should explain a little bit about myself. First of all I am a 9th grader and I love high school. So far its actually have been a blast. The work isn't to tough, have a lot of friends, and best of all there are a lot of cute boys ;). My anxiety has been an issue ever since the third grade but I really don't know what set it off. My anxiety has been manageable for a few years now and its slowly been getting better. My anxiety attacks would be horrible exspecially if i was with my friends because I didn't want them to see me acting weird and twitchy (when I'm twitchy I usually pluck at myself)so I would go to the bathroom or something to calm myself down. For the past two months my anxiety has been really I mean extremely bad! It used to be I was anxious for going to my 4th period class which is band but now it has escalated into I can't stand going to school anymore! I wake up feel horrible and scare try not to make a big deal out of it and the moment the bell rings for classes to start I feel horrible I usually make 40 minutes in my first period class but after that I run to the clinic to go home I'm usually balling and stuff and its scary!!!! My teachers all know and they excuse me whenever I need to leave to go to guidance to talk to my counselor who seems to be getting more annoyed with me everyday! Its so frustrating when I have no one to truly turn to during school besides my friends who I have too wait for lunch to see them and I'm usually home by then. My grades are plummeting and I use to be an A student and now I have a 39% in one of my classes!!!! Its all so stressful and confusing!!! I've been to the doctor and he put me on medicine that doesn't really start kicking in until 6 weeks so I went to the doctors again today since a left school early again and he put me on another medicine that should really start working fast. So here I am now writing all my thoughts and feelings out about me so this was just a summary about me!